I can't believe this long year is finally coming to an end. By this time tomorrow I will have my husband in my arms again and Ella will have her Daddy there to kiss her good night. It's going to be an adjustment for all of us, but I have a feeling it won't be too difficult;) When Tom left last April I will never ever forget just coming home from the airport and crying on the couch. The feeling of loneliness was so overwhelming I didn't know how I would get through each day. But then Ella came up to me and hugged me and I knew I wasn't alone. I would get through a year without her dad for her. And I did. Although this year has had it's trying moments, I feel I've grown a lot from it (literally, huh? with a seriously fast growing belly...) But in all seriousness I am happy I stuck it out here in Oklahoma instead of going home to FL. I'm proud of myself. I'm much more independent. I'm stronger. I have a renewed love for my Catholic Faith. I can fix a garbage disposal, plaster a hole in the wall to re-hang curtains, mow the lawn, build furniture, travel across the world with a toddler, and so much more. I can only hope one day Ella will look back to this year (of course I will have the blog printed!) and realize her mama did her absolute best. I hope she's proud of me and I hope, more than anything, I have instilled a bit of my strength and determination in her.
To my family and friends, Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of the emails, phone calls, Facebook messages, texts, and cards to keep me going daily. It lifted my spirits and got me through each day with an added smile. I have a wonderful support system and without you all, the days would have been much longer. To my MIL and my mama, I never tire of you checking in on me. Don't stop those calls just because Tom is coming home. I love you both so much. To my bestie Bridget, I know you don't know this but those daily morning calls made time fly by for me. You are the best listener and I really don't know what I would do without you. To my husband, please don't go away again for a really long time. I may have made it through this just fine, but Lord knows all of your girls need you around. We missed you a TON.
I can't express how grateful I am for the life I have...how appreciative I am of all God has given me. I am forever counting my blessings.
And now I'm off to bed alone for the last time with this baby girl kicking inside me like crazy. I think she's just a little excited to hear her daddy's voice for the first time.
4 comments:
So so happy for all of you! What an amazing job you did this past year!!!!
speaking of bellies when do we get to see new pics? Going thru this myself, I know how hard it is and you are amazing for doing and doing it well! Congrats, you are awesome!!! :o)
So sweet of you! We are all so proud of you! You are a great Mama and we know this past year has been a rough one. I too, feel very blessed to have you in my life as well as your Mom, Dad, Bud and Bryan. They really are family to us as well. Tough times have made us stronger. Faith has pulled us through some horrible times, and our love as a family has made it possible to lean on each other and gain strength at those low moments.You are the best! Love Granny P
What are you now 2/2 making me tear up while reading your blog??? I tried not to be too early but gosh that hour time difference killed me,lol! It's a great give and take friendship we have going on. Believe it or not you help me tons. You def. turn my mood around when I'm being short from sleep deprivation. You make me laugh when I originally called you frustrated. You are the best bestie ever!
You did a wonderful job while Tom was gone. You are a strong woman....I hear your roaring now,muahahahaha!
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